I have soccer practice around 4 which means I have some time after school to get some homework done.
I'll probably get done with my AP US homework in Ms.Moores room right after school and then work on the rest of the homework on the train going back home.
I haven't been able to attend the last two soccer practices.
The first being that I had had the pacer test last period and my shin felt like I was about to pull the vein within. Running was just making it worst. With all that pain I couldn't even move my leg at all.
Plus I knew that my bestfriends were going straight home and it has been a while since I was with them so it just seemed appropiate that I take a day off but what was worst was that the day after I had a soccer game...but all I could do in that moment was just wait and see how I would feel the day after.
I had to text my coach telling him about my pain but he didn't seem to reply so I assumed that he hadn't seen the message, however the next day he came up to me and asked me about my pain and if I was feeling better but to me my whole body felt sore, walking fast was painful and going up the stairs seemed harder than ever.
But I keep telling myself that it's all worth it and that this way I'm not stressed out about all my school work and I have something to keep me distracted.
Soccer became more than a distraction as I found myself yesterday contemplating whether I should finish a paper that was due in an hour or attend practice and just submit what I had.
Everyone around me keeps on telling me that my "team sucks" and that we aren't good enough and asking me when we are going to start winning some games...But they don't understand everything that we go through. How I practice and practice.
And it became irritating as time passed by and it seemed like there were only a few girls interested in the best for the team.
And I know it may seem like I'm not looking out and trying to do the best but managing time with my family, friends, soccer and on top of it all school...is starting to become my nightmare.
(I took this picture at the end of my soccer practice.)
Well that game was interesting. I discovered something new. I need to work on my stamina.
With the start of school I haven't been able to just focus on soccer and focus on maintaining my body fit. Today at my game I realized I need to actually get back to running. The first ten minutes I already felt like I was dying and that I was going to faint if I didn't stop running. It could've been the sun that was bothering me, but I really was out of breathe and I couldn't even run.
This just means that now I need to work harder.
And yet still balance school and soccer even better.
I don't know about this, seems like it's impossible but I've gotten this far and I know I can still keep on going.